like the title says, im just trying to be happy. happy as i can be. with my family. my friends. all my love ones.
i live life contradicting myself too much, but i can only say my excuse is that im human and i have my flaws. i love my family but i always argue rather than try to live in peace with them. im grateful to have such awesome friends but i end up hurting their feelings unintentionally. i say mean things and do foolish things without thinking. but i dont think im a bad person at all because everyone is still by me. i love them all, every single one that matters.
i've had a headache lately, probably with the lack of sleep and pile of things to do. i have a research paper for my english monomyth class and there are deadlines like every week. im scared right now because i dont have a laptop of my own since my old one broke down and died. volleyball is starting next week, im so excited to get started and play but at the same time im worried about my team and wondering will everyone put their all in it. first game is on the 26th of march too, so we have less than a month to practice, especially with new comers coming in it will eat up alot of time getting them to learn the skills of passing and such.. im doing a dance this year with my bestfriend tien. but i havent even started dancing with her and auditions are on the 18th and 19th of march. I MUST DO THIS DANCE with her because its our senior year and i want to do something outrageous with her, such as dancing for the first time in public.
as you can see, all this stuff being jammed into such a short amount of time. goshh, but deep down i know i can do this!
i believe friday was a really happy moment for me. even though i pulled an all nighter the night before to do my outline and dialectical journal for my research paper and resulted in getting a headache all day, i loved friday. after school i went to watch a movie with just ve and had an awesome time with just us two because we havent done that in awhile. she's an awesome friend and will always be my sister. after that we went to MAP! i brought ve to MAP for the first time, i always wanted to bring her to see what i do hehe best part is sarah came too! what was special this friday was that i was the one to lead the discussion topic. so it was so great for ve and sarah to come, because they are soooo important to me and to share this with this was an honor. i was so tired and had a major headache but with all this going on, i couldnt help but smile the whole time and forget about everything and focus on those very moments.
on the side note, i also got my paycheck for the month teehehe "and we dont buy no drinks at the bar, we pop champagne cause we got that doughh. lemme hear you say ahhh ahh ahh" hahahaha but yeah half of it goes straight to the savings account :)
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Oh the stress and deadlines of senior year! You and I know you can get through this and do well. We all do. Just don't get too caught up in thinking about it. The key is to do and not to worry. I miss you and I can't wait to see you perform (if this is for Asian Night). Keep my posted!<3 :)
ReplyDeletelol yes!! youre saving!! and im so glad that ve and i were able to contribute to your happy moments! it was fun being at map, loved the workshop! hahah :D
ReplyDeleteand yes, even though you got a lot on your plate right now, you can definitely pull through and take each thing down one by one. calm down, relax, and think positive! dont let it get you down! :D