Label Me.

In this lifetime and currently now, the society i live in would label me as a bisexual male. or an ignorant label such as, a gay fag.

Bisexuality is a sexual behavior or an orientation involving physical or emotional attraction to both males and females.

yeah, that seems about right.

however, i dont want to live in a society where people are labeled each day. im tired of living a life where i have to be afraid of expressing my emotions and attractions. these past few years, i've been living life being a hypocrite and not being fully who i am to everyone.

who know and have accepted me from the beginning? my bestfriend Tien. she's been there for me from the start and have never treated me differently ever since she knew. i love her to death and i cant express how much she means to me. she's my family along with my other friend name Sarah. She is the second to know and she has greatly impacted me. she never once changed the way she talk towards me and she never once looked down upon me. these two helped me through the tough times and gave me so many happy memories that i can never forget.

Stephen, a friend of mine labeled as gay by society, and i have recently talked alot this school year. I trusted him to understand who i was and i was right. he has understood my position i'm in as he was in the same position himself awhile back. he's brave and he happily expresses himself without fear. I tell him all the time that im scared of what society will look at me after but he have helped me learn to love who i am and not fear. i can honestly say i want to see who is still here for me, i want to see who cares so much about my sexuality that changes my friendship between them. at this point i have no regrets because im done living in fear of people not accepting me.

the only fear i have is from my family. i know my family will love me no matter what, but will they accept me? of course, but i know they'll probably never approve of me being "this way". I know my brother will find out from the mouths that spread around words like fire, and eventually my family will know. i lay in bed everynight with fear of feeling shameful and being a disappointment to my family. but i believe im ready for it.

im ready for the ignorant comments that is coming my way. im ready to experience hate and discrimination from certain people in society. im ready to meet those who can accept me. im ready to finally be who i am completely.